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Writer's Block: Where I want to be [Jul. 10th, 2010|06:16 pm]
Tomas Gallucci
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What was your childhood dream? Did you ever accomplish it?

My childhood dream was to be a talk show host, a computer programmer, a writer, and a Total Filmmaker (actor/writer/producer/director), live in a big house, not want for money and have a hot babe for a wife.

Thus far, I've recorded one or two "talk shows" for fun at a friend's studio, but I don't think I even have the audio anymore. It was horrid. I am, however, considering doing a podcast, but just like with film and photography, I want a certain level of equipment before I start.

As I say in my profile, I wanted to be a programmer and thought that SysAdmins are the devil, but now I don't care to be a programmer on the daily and would prefer to be a SysAdmin. I've not made a lot of headway on either one of these; in fact, I'm stuck in a rut. More in an upcoming protected post.

I'm going to steal lindakimduong's line: I wanted to be a writer, but found out blogging is much easier. I guess this is the goal that I actually accomplished depending on how you want to interpret the facts. I got paid for some articles that I wrote for The Exponent. I suppose this counts as being a writer, but I'm not sure that this single publishing credit is good enough to get me published other places. Maybe I should add 2011 Writer's Market Deluxe Edition to my wishlist.

I've written in the screenplay format, but I've not come up with a screenplay of my own–yet. I don't have the money or the resources to produce film–yet. If you count the little bit of collaboration I've done on a couple of music videos and the one time we went out in the woods and goofed off with swords, I've directed. I refuse to act without having the necessary support staff: makeup, costume, props, etc. I did, however, bring the house down with a dual role I played in a tiny Christmas play at a church in the middle of nowhere. I should look for more acting opportunities.

I'm heading back to school in the fall provided the rest of the necessary paperwork processes in time (and to think that I registered on Day 1 and have been hounding the school about my loans!). Though I have a plan (which I feel like I've went over ad nausea on my blogs before) which consists of:

  • potentially getting an Associate's in CS since it looks like I'm 2/3 of the way there.

  • At least attempting the first of a four-part series in a CISO certification

  • picking up an Associate's in Photography

  • transferring to Athens State

  • get a bachelor's in English (which Athens offers) or go to J-school or film school

But I started school in 2002. Eight years later, I have nothing to show for it.

I've lived in the same apartment for going on six years now. I haven't moved not because I like the neighborhood but because I don't have the money.


I guess I can't say that I haven't dated at this point as I've actually asked someone out to dinner and had at least one serious LDR, but there's a reason that I still live alone and am generally a depressed fuck.

[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 07:31 pm (UTC)
Why are you so opposed to practice? I mean, natural ability aside, its the number one recommended way to do anything - everything really. I've tried it, and it works! Look at it this way, isn't college just "practice" for exams? Why don't you just take all the tests instead? It'd save a lot of money, and time. Voila!

I had this...cousin. He was a 'C' student at a rural high school, and decided he wanted to be a surgeon and was going to apply to John Hopkins. I explained you don't just apply to John Hopkins, that you required excellent grades from a well established and scholastically superior institute of higher learning, and that he would never even get that far without first completing several years at an adaquate university first. I suggested that right after high school, he apply to the local Junior College, and begin to study and apply himself so he could realize his dream.

His response? "Screw that, I'm not going to Junior College. I'll apply directly to John Hopkins and if they turn me down I'll just get a job at Wal-Mart." - http://ehowton.livejournal.com/86077.html
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 07:43 pm (UTC)
I've heard this story before.

I'm not really complaining in this post. Granted, I am a bit on the depressed side and I'm working on another personal blog, but I felt like answering this Writer's Block because I was measuring myself against my expectations.

And the short answer to your question about the CISCO stuff...that's not a test that you just take. I looked it up: the exam that you prep for over four classes is the CCNA. I saw that Calhoun was giving a test this summer that cost $3100, but I can't readily find that material. According to CISCO's website, it looks like it will take $500 to take the tests necessary. I don't have the body of knowledge yet to take the test nor do I have the coin. I think I would do better to take the first class in the series and make sure that this is a path that I want to pursue before I rush headlong into it, don't you think?
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 07:55 pm (UTC)
I do I do I do. I think all your plans are FANTASTIC. I'm really in your corner on this one.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 07:44 pm (UTC)
Why should doctors go to school for all those years? Isn't college just "practice" for the real world? Why don't they just skip ahead and take the test?
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 07:54 pm (UTC)
Exactly! WHY ARE YOU SO OPPOSED TO PRACTICE? The rest of the world does it - why don't you? Are you better than the rest of the world?
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 07:55 pm (UTC)
You invalidate your previous argument. You told me to just go ahead and take the tests. Please make up your mind.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 08:00 pm (UTC)
Hrm. It was a rhetorical question. Here we go: You invalidate your previous argument - Why don't you go ahead and practice podcasting INSTEAD of sitting around waiting for a "certain level" of equipment?
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 08:07 pm (UTC)
I'm going to pull the equipment line again: I need a mic.

Granted, I think I've made a couple of the last voice posts from the built-in mic on my laptop, but if I'm going to do a regular show that I'm going to submit to iTunes, then I at least need a real mic. I've got a preamp, compressor/gate, boom and headphones.

Now what I want is either the EV RE-20 or 27 or the Heil PR40, but those are condenser mics which run about $350 used and I would have to swap my 02|02 for the 04|04 so I can have phantom power for the mic. Additionally, I need to get a bank of jingles and figure out how to route everything where it needs to go.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 08:18 pm (UTC)
Every bit of that is entirely logical.

Except the part where you don't even want to practice until you have the stuff.

Here's a great way to save a thousand dollars: Do something for free a couple of times before you drop coin to see if you even have an aptitude for it.

Imagine getting the EV RE-20 and a bank of jingles, sitting down to record, and you discover, "Holy shit, but I suck at this!"

Hey, its just an idea. Between doing nothing at all, and anything - I'll do just about anything.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 08:20 pm (UTC)
I'll count the voice posts as proof of concept.

But really, I need a mic if I want to add any other audio source as I'm currently set up. I could get away with using a used Sure 58. Those don't cost too much new and should be much less used.

I may have just solved a problem!
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 08:41 pm (UTC)
This works! Heading to Walmart to pick up a shitty ass mic. We'll see if we can make it sound good!
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 09:01 pm (UTC)
Holding off on the mic until next paycheck. I'm broke. But I did a proof of concept wiring. It works and I have all the cables I need. It may not be pretty, but it will work.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2010-07-10 09:10 pm (UTC)
And sometimes, that's all that matters ;)
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-10 09:27 pm (UTC)

P.S. Did you listen to those tracks I sent you?
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From: (Anonymous)
2010-07-11 01:43 am (UTC)

Proof of Concept and other stuff...

Ehowton is giving you great advice! It really will be useful, and if you give me a date and a time I'll make sure I'm logged on to my Mac and help you out - "Notes from Australia" or some crap like that.

You definitely have plan, and don't beat yourself up about the time it takes - at least you're not just settling for a dead-end job at Wal*Mart like so many others do. Keep at it, keep plugging away and the rewards will come to you. Otherwise, there's always your Book Deal that you can hold out for! XP

I also understand that you're struggling for coin, and Texas will probably have my guts for garters if she finds out, but I'm willing to help you out with your flight down here. I checked on Southwest Airlines and Studentuniverse.com and it looks like the price for flights will be around $200-$250 or so - how much short do you think you will be? Do you know where you'll be staying yet?

Finally, don't give up! I know that you can make it :)
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2010-07-11 10:17 am (UTC)

Re: Proof of Concept and other stuff...

Thanks for commenting.

As soon as I read the words "Notes from Australia" I was like who in the hell left this comment? I thought that it might be someone from the No Agenda chat, but then I started going though the folks I talk to there and the three or four that I thought might be interested in my blog weren't from Australia. Sure, there are some Aussies on the chat, but not the folks I thought would be commenting on my blog.

I read and re-read that line over and over trying to figure out who in the hell left the comment. You understand, I had just woken up and dreamed that I had almost gotten hit by a train. I didn't think to trace the IP. The clue that finally helped me figure out who you were is that you referenced Texas and the flight.

So this begs the question: what is your plan again? I thought that you and Texas were staying State-side for the most part other than a cruise or two that someone had bought for you (or was that my friend that got married last year?) Aren't you two going to stay at the school where you're at and get your Ph.Ds?

Yes, I have many plans, but I have many worries too. I'm not sure that the world as we know it will be here much longer, especially not when I read stories like this. I see total economic collapse and an enemy of this country in the White House when it happens, meaning the country is screwed.

Don't worry about the flight. I'll figure something out. My first option is to pay cash of course. I may be able to do that when the student loans kick in, which I expect will happen sometime in September. I would like to buy my ticket before the close of August though.

The other unknown unknown (as Rumsfield was wont to call it) is the other big news that I'm still waiting to hear back on. (Please don't mention it by name here; this is a public post.) Should that deal go through, I'll have cash freeing up like you wouldn't believe simply because of a mandatory option that I have to cash out on my departure. (Confused? email me) That option, of course, is superfluous to the additional cash flow that would come of the deal, so the sooner I get positive news, the better. But we're at the hurry up and wait stage. More news on that in the next post.

Right now, my biggest concern is where to stay and if I can afford it. I'd like to pay for everything via cash, but it looks like unless the big deal goes down soon, I'll be lucky to pay for the plane ticket via cash which means I'll have a hefty credit-card bill for the rest. Oh vey! To answer your question, no, I don't know where I'm staying.

I'm not giving up. In fact, I think you'll be pleasantly surprised with a plan that I'm brewing. (Think Fight Club) More details in the next post.

I looked on all the travel websites including the student one you gave me the address to. All flights are going to be at least $349 right now. Are you sure you didn't price one-way flights? Who knows, maybe it was a midnight deal. There wasn't any price difference between the student site and Travelocity. I normally use priceline.com, but their site wouldn't complete the search this morning. :(

I'll keep you posted (pardon the pun) in any and all developments.

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[User Picture]From: newmistakes
2010-11-12 03:35 am (UTC)
I'm sorry but you being a depressed fuck does not gel with the picture of "you" in my head and I find it very hard to believe that I'm wrong!
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