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Prelude to The Plans, Hopes and Dreams of a Upcoming Filmmaker [Sep. 2nd, 2007|11:27 pm]
Tomas Gallucci
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It's been a hellava week.

This has been one of the crazies, busiest and yet totally un-productive weeks I've ever had. Oh, my job as gotten more then their pound of flesh. I think I put in somewhere close to 50 and by the end of the evening I should have another 15 at the other job...the sad part is that all that money is already spent. I hate bills.

I briefly IMed with ehowton sometime this week. He still thinks that I should join the Force, but I'm still stonewalled where I was the last time I considered that option. I should probably just stay where I'm at and make the most of it, but I'm becoming discontent again. I know better then to leave, but I'm not liking staying. There is no justice in the world. People who know a lot less then me make infinitely more then me and yet here I am. Oh, and let's not forget that our elected representatives have decided to inflate the economy by no less then 60% in two years. Prior to this July 24th, the minimum wage here in Alabama (one of the States with the lowest cost of living) was $5.15/hr. It went up to $5.85 this year. It's set to go up again next July 24 and then the year after then until it tops out around $7.25/hr. So what is that going to do to those of us who are making decent money now? Even if we get the much needed 75% raise, it will only be a COLA, so in actuality we will be making the same money two years from now except we will get to pay more taxes on it.

I wished I could find a real good money making opportunity. Sometimes it feels like everyone around me has found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and I'm left to watch on the sidelines. Yes, I could have already had several scripts written, but I'm beat down by the time I get home. That's no excuse I know, but the only thing that's been keeping me going is House. Sadly, the third season just cameo out on DVD and the fourth isn't going to start airing until the end of this month, so even if I luck out and get a hold of the third season from Netflix, I'm up shit creek without a paddle in a week.

Speaking of the end of the month, I'm starting to doubt whether or not I'll be able to make it to Sidewalk. The ominous 60,000 mile mark is quickly approaching and that means maintenance. I'm at the tire shop now. They said I had 10% left on the back breaks so I went ahead and got them changed. When they handed me the keys they told me that there was a slight "brake shake" (I think he made that up) on the front. I got in and not only was there a "brake shake", there was resistance on the front passenger side. Some days I wished I knew more about cars. I still get the feeling that with the current laws and the dicks that enforce them that we'd all be better off driving damned golf carts. What's the point of having a vehicle that will travel in excess of 100 mph if you can only drive it at 15?

Maybe this is just more angst coming out. Maybe I have to wait until I turn 40 to get anything out of life. If that's the case, can someone put me in a cryogenic freeze and wake me up when I get there?

Oh, back to the writing thing: I've been doing a lot of thinking sitting here about the little bit of research that I did last night; I don't think that the idea I had is going to work which means back to the drawing board. I hate this. Here I had an idea that just needed the details filled in, but the more I research, the more I realize that what held the project together for me just won't work. Also, I'm losing interest with the whole damned thing. I want to create but the best I can do is adapt other's work. While not plagiarism, when you don't get paid to do so, you're left empty.

I want to create and have creativity, yet I lack the energy to create. Damn! I could settle down if I knew that the money would start flowing soon, but that's not going to happen. Maybe I should start posting resumes all over the internet and see who bites. I hear that the zoo needs monkey disciplinarians.

P.S. I bought a couple of books on the subject of gcc off of Amazon so that I can thoroughly learn the ins and outs. The way I see it, when I get my mini next year, I'll be buying a desktop machine as well as a production box.

P. P. S. I left the shop with the car after they rotated the front rotors. It's going back first thing Tuesday to get pads.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-03 03:00 pm (UTC)
I wished I could find a real good money making opportunity.
All it takes is the right attitude and lots of hard work.

Sometimes it feels like everyone around me has found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and I'm left to watch on the sidelines.
They've got the right attitude and put in lots of hard work.

Maybe this is just more angst coming out.
Angst can be prevented with the right attitude and lots of hard work.

Maybe I have to wait until I turn 40 to get anything out of life. If that's the case, can someone put me in a cryogenic freeze and wake me up when I get there?
Unfortunately, the reason you'll have accomplished so much by the time you're 40 is because you will have learned how to have the right attitude and have put in a lot of hard work. Cryogenically freezing you for 20 years will not change any of that. You'd be just as lazy and angsty then as you are now, only at that point way behind the power curve, because it will take you another 20 years to catch up.

I could settle down if I knew that the money would start flowing soon, but that's not going to happen.
Those who are successful settle down and work hard without the prospect of money flowing in. Knowing you as I do, and with that attitude, even if the money were flowing in you'd still be lazy and angsty. You have to change yourself first.

Good luck.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-03 03:29 pm (UTC)
So much for morale support.

Seriously, is this just an age thing or do you really think I'm a worthless fuck?
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-03 06:11 pm (UTC)
Tough one, to be sure. I think once you unfuck yourself you'll do great things. And yes, your age is a factor insofaras you want everything for nothing. No worries, its your entire generation. But you're better than they are. All you have to do is work past that shit, and you'll be right as rain.
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[User Picture]From: celtmanx
2007-09-03 09:15 pm (UTC)
That's the Y (WHY) generation isn't it???
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-03 11:44 pm (UTC)
When I ask "why?" it is to become more educated, not to whine.
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[User Picture]From: celtmanx
2007-09-03 11:59 pm (UTC)
No, the why generation does not ask good questions.

They want to know why should I work?, Why won't you support me for the rest of my life? Why won't you give me money? Why do I have to do chores? Why can't I stay up all night playing video games and sleep all day? Where is my cut of the inheritance? And etc...

I was not specifically talking about you in the Y(Why?)generation, but that's what the why generation does. My oldest nephew whom ehowton knows is a member of the Y generation.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 12:12 am (UTC)
Thanks for the clarification, sir. Understood.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-03 11:43 pm (UTC)
At least I get credit for NOT being a product of my generation.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-04 02:53 am (UTC)
You're NOT a product of your generation IF you work past that shit.

To date, you haven't.

You still have time.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 02:58 am (UTC)
How do you figure that I haven't worked passed it? And what do you mean unfuck myself? More correctly, what do you mean when you say I'm fucked?
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-04 03:01 am (UTC)
You're whiny and angsty and always talking about "when" and "if." Enjoy the moment - learn to appreciate what you have now. Once you do, you'll be unstoppable!
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 03:04 am (UTC)
To become content is to become complacent. To become complacent is to become stagnate. To become stagnate is to die. Ergo, I am not content to stay where I am at though I am content to not be where I was.
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-04 03:10 am (UTC)
See, that's the retard in you talking. Here's a quick test to see if any of that horseshit you just spewed is true:

Your life sucked a year ago.

You did not become complacent.

Does your life suck any less now?

No!

See - its AMAZING. Seriously, when I was your age, I was SO FUCKING WORRIED ALL THE TIME that I would someday become complacent. My girlfriend told me, "No one who is as worried about becoming complacent as you are, will ever allow themselves to do so, so stop worrying about it" It was freeing! (And I know I've told you that before.)

Anyway, STOP trying to tell ME that 'being happy with yourself now' is to become complacent. Its not. I know. I'm living proof. So expend just a fraction of this energy on thinking about life differently instead of arguing with me. YOU WILL NEVER WIN.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 03:22 am (UTC)
This goes back to my theory:

Life is shit! Get to know this!
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-04 03:25 am (UTC)
Even your theories are retarded! Life is only shit IF YOU WANT IT TO BE!

Its called a self-fulfilling prophesy.
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 03:28 am (UTC)
arguing
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[User Picture]From: ehowton
2007-09-04 12:31 pm (UTC)
Here's a funny spin on that:

"Arguing with someone who is successful when they're trying to help you become successful in your life makes you appear retarded."
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[User Picture]From: celtmanx
2007-09-03 04:02 pm (UTC)
In your absence I have had to make some comments for you and look at the trouble it gets me in to!!!

http://galinda822.livejournal.com/38582.html
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-04 03:01 am (UTC)
You tempted me you evil bastard. (read)I bet I get into trouble with lady galinda822.
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[User Picture]From: wardlejew
2007-09-04 07:29 pm (UTC)
Life bites you in the butt sometimes. The difference between losers and winners is losers complain,, complain some more, complain even more, look to others for help and blame others for their state when nothing seems to change. The winners complain, adapt, push on, stay focused, and realize only they can make it happen.

Make it happen, or be a loser. It is amazing how much help you will get once you start sounding like you believe in yourself.
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From: irulan_amy
2007-09-05 07:59 pm (UTC)
I have seriously considered the Air Force. I haven't entirely pushed it out of my mind...

And it is incredibly, really difficult to work all day and then come home and be creative. It is really a task, so don't be hard on yourself about that at all.

I am amazed at a friend of mine who works full-time, has a wife and four kids, and still manages to illustrate like the wind and write wonderful books. He is my inspiration when I think I'm tired or can't do it. It doesn't always spur me into action, but it helps - to me - to know that others do in fact succeed.

I've been off work for a few months now. I have written very, very little. I've turned my mind to other creative outlets instead. Being creative and surviving on that creativity is hard. :/
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[User Picture]From: schpydurx
2007-09-06 01:30 am (UTC)
I have seriously considered the Air Force.
I don't know you well enough, so I don't know how to react. Joining the Air Force does seem, however, counterintuitive to entering the motion picture business.

And it is incredibly, really difficult to work all day and then come home and be creative. It is really a task
I have already taken these words to heart. Thank you for sharing.

...so don't...in fact succeed.
See, that's just the thing. If I wasn't hard on myself I wouldn't produce anything. As much as I hate to say that he's right, ehowton does make a point when he says that nothing but hard work pays off.

Being creative and surviving on that creativity is hard.
That's why we call it talent and idolize those who do.
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From: irulan_amy
2007-09-07 07:35 pm (UTC)
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<i...so don't...in fact succeed.
See, that's just the thing. If I wasn't hard on myself I wouldn't produce anything. As much as I hate to say that he's right, ehowton does make a point when he says that nothing but hard work pays off.</i>

Um, that's my point entirely. My friend Travis has to work his ass off to illustrate and write (http://beanleafpress.com). He has to come home from a day job, spend some time with his family, and make himself sit down and work. Lately, even doing so with an injured hand. It also helps that he has solid support from his family.

So I admire him, and he is inspiration for me when I think I can't do it (writing).
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