It's amazing that at almost 23 years of age I have no clue who I am.
I've been researching the Civil Rights movement for two scripts I'm working on. Though I haven't had the time to put into the project like i would like, I have found that I'm enjoying the research and learning new things. Maybe it's because it's recent history, maybe it's because I've been to Birmingham and so I know where the events took place, but I'm finding I'm enjoying the research.Stephen
came over the other night to pick up some a DVD I had for him. We got to talking and he told me about Martin Luther's anti-Semitism
. I had no idea that the Father of the Reformation would have such things to say about Jews.
Something else I've been doing a lot of research on is WW II, particularly the Nazis. I find it fascinating that not only did they so throughly plan how they were going to accomplish their objectives, but also the thoroughness with which they accomplished their executed those objectives.
I have a project that I've wanted to work on for years. It's a big ensemble story about the first six months of WW II. There are a lot of things that I don't know that I would have to research before I could even think about making that film. In fact, I don't think I'll get to make it until much later in life. Hopefully the world won't be too far gone for that film when I do make it.
I've been thinking about going back to school lately. No, I'm not going back, at least not while I owe money. But I think about what I would major in and the only thing I can think of is math, film or history. Now to go to a real film school costs real money, but the past couple of days I've spent wondering if I could do a history degree. I know that I'm not too fond of Church history because the art work is too flat for my taste pre-reformation, but what I find fascinating is not what people do, but why the do it.
I don't know that I'd be able to focus long enough for a history degree, but it's something worth thinking about and taking a few classes in outside of the required general eds.
Maybe my calling isn't to be any one particular thing but to absorb as much as I can. I've always flirted with being a professional student.
I need a swift kick in the pants pointing me in the direction that I'm going to live my life instead of waiting for it to unfold. Yes, I've always preached that the journey is more important then the destination, but I've got to do something
and would really like to know what that something is. Putting in 60+ hours a week plus between two jobs isn't the most fun I've ever had. I don't mind the work; I enjoy the income. But I wished I could consolidate down to 40 a week leaving me time as a single person to work on some of my side projects and hobbies.